"CHECKING OUT OR CHECKING IN?"
I've been writing these daily blog posts now for more than 10 days and it's been quite a challenge I have to admit. It's mostly the pressure of not knowing what to write every day. Fears or insecurities can bubble up in the process. I guess most artists can relate to this. You might feel that you are fooling everyone and yourself. They’ve got a name for that. It’s called “impostor syndrome”. It also feels like you don't have anything sensible or substantial to say. But every time I show up to the paper and just start, something will miraculously come out. Even to my surprise sometimes. So every day it just comes down to that one decision: Am I checking in today or am I checking out?
I would like to come back to my first blog post when I wrote about not caring who is reading this. With this mindset, I sort of write for myself. No, maybe not even that. I just write for the sake of writing. For practicing the medium. It's initially why I started doing this.
I like writing because you can use your voice in a more precise way and really think about what you have to say. With writing, you also have to tackle the obstacle of communicating your ideas as clearly as possible in comprehensible sentences. I hope I am doing that for you: the reader.
Speaking about that subject: you, the reader. I want to say thank you for staying with me this far. I don't know how many people actually read my posts in its entirety. I know that this format isn't the most social media-friendly nowadays. This is more like slow media. It takes time out of your day. So I want to say thanks to the few people that do actually read them, and I hope I can be of any inspiration to you on your social media feed.